{"id":580,"date":"2020-05-07T17:29:00","date_gmt":"2020-05-07T17:29:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hermann.arnhold.eu\/?p=580"},"modified":"2020-05-07T17:29:00","modified_gmt":"2020-05-07T17:29:00","slug":"im-kalten-dezember-%d0%b4%d0%b5%d0%ba%d0%b0%d0%b1%d1%80%d1%8c%d1%81%d0%ba%d0%b8%d0%b5-%d0%b2%d1%8c%d1%8e%d0%b3%d0%b8","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/?p=580","title":{"rendered":"Im kalten Dezember \/ \u0414\u0435\u043a\u0430\u0431\u0440\u044c\u0441\u043a\u0438\u0435 \u0432\u044c\u044e\u0433\u0438"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Vielleicht ist\u00b4s zu keck.
Und dennoch vern\u00fcnftig.
Drum lassen wir f\u00fcnfzig
gedanklich mal weg.
Dann w\u00e4rest du siebzehn –
ersprie\u00dfend und bl\u00fchend,
reserviert und verhalten –
wie damals in Balzer…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O sorglose Jugend!
Da gedeihen die Blumen
im Garten der Seele
sogar ohne Regen:
Ein Spinner und Tr\u00e4umer.
Er hatte sich heimlich
ein M\u00e4rchen ersonnen
und liebgewonnen –
ein junges Gesch\u00f6pf,
sympathisch und nett.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So kniete er nieder –
wieder und wieder! –
vor seiner Madonna,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sie inbr\u00fcnstig anbetend
und innig verg\u00f6tternd,
um ihr seine Sehnsucht
nach W\u00e4rme und Licht
und Gunst zu bezeigen.
Doch schwieg sie, die Sch\u00f6ne.
Wie G\u00f6ttinnen schweigen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sie erh\u00f6rte ihn nicht –
den Tr\u00e4umer und Spinner:
Wie ein Stern, der erlischt
am n\u00e4chtlichen Himmel…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dann kam die Verdammung
Mit Sturm und Gewitter.
Und unsere Tr\u00e4ume
gingen auf in Flammen.
Und was wir erlitten
in den f\u00fcnfzig Jahren,
ist nicht zu beschreiben…
Und wir bleiben auch heute
vertrieben wie damals:
Geknebeltes Schweigen…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Im kalten Dezember,
wo alles verschneit,
ringt trostlos die H\u00e4nde
die Einsamkeit…
Und w\u00e4rmt meine Beichte
dein bek\u00fcmmertes Herz,
vergeht vielleicht leichter
dein bohrender Schmerz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

30. November 1990<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u0411\u0435\u0441\u043f\u0435\u0447\u043d\u0430\u044f \u044e\u043d\u043e\u0441\u0442\u044c!
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\u0412 \u0434\u0443\u0448\u0435 \u043d\u0430\u0448\u0435\u0439 \u0441\u0430\u0434
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\u041c\u0435\u0447\u0442\u0430\u0442\u0435\u043b\u044c \u0432 \u043f\u0440\u0438\u043d\u0446\u0435\u0441\u0441\u0443
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            \u0441\u043d\u043e\u0432\u0430 \u0438 \u0441\u043d\u043e\u0432\u0430,
\u043a \u043c\u0430\u0434\u043e\u043d\u043d\u0435 \u0438 \u043d\u0435\u0436\u043d\u043e,
             \u0438 \u043f\u044b\u043b\u043a\u043e \u0432\u0437\u044b\u0432\u0430\u044f.
\u0418 \u0440\u0435\u0432\u043d\u043e\u0441\u0442\u043d\u0435\u0439 \u043d\u0435\u0442
            \u0432 \u0446\u0435\u043b\u043e\u043c \u043c\u0438\u0440\u0435 \u043f\u043e\u0440\u044b\u0432\u0430.
\u041e\u043d \u0431\u043e\u0433\u043e\u0442\u0432\u043e\u0440\u0438\u0442 \u0435\u0451,
                        \u043e\u0431\u043e\u0436\u0435\u0441\u0442\u0432\u043b\u044f\u044f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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            \u0438\u0441\u043a\u0440\u0435\u043d\u043d\u043e\u0441\u0442\u044c \u0447\u0443\u0432\u0441\u0442\u0432\u0430,
\u043f\u043e\u0442\u0440\u0435\u0431\u043d\u043e\u0441\u0442\u044c \u043b\u044e\u0431\u0432\u0438
            \u0438 \u0442\u043e\u0441\u043a\u0443 \u043f\u043e \u0441\u0432\u044f\u0442\u044b\u043d\u0435.
\u041e\u043d \u0436\u0430\u0436\u0434\u0435\u0442 \u0442\u0435\u043f\u043b\u0430
            \u0438 \u0432\u0435\u0441\u0435\u043d\u043d\u0435\u0433\u043e \u0431\u0443\u0439\u0441\u0442\u0432\u0430.
\u0412 \u043e\u0442\u0432\u0435\u0442 \u043d\u0430 \u043c\u043e\u043b\u044c\u0431\u044b \u2013
            \u043b\u0438\u0448\u044c \u043c\u043e\u043b\u0447\u0430\u043d\u044c\u0435 \u0431\u043e\u0433\u0438\u043d\u0438.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u041d\u0430\u0434\u0435\u0436\u0434\u044b, \u043c\u0435\u0447\u0442\u044b \u0444\u0430\u043d\u0442\u0430\u0437\u0435\u0440\u0430
                                   \u043d\u0430\u043f\u0440\u0430\u0441\u043d\u044b.
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                                   \u0441\u0442\u0440\u0430\u0441\u0442\u043d\u043e\u0433\u043e \u0437\u043e\u0432\u0430.
\u0417\u0432\u0435\u0437\u0434\u0430, \u0447\u0442\u043e \u0431\u044b\u043b\u0430 
            \u0442\u0430\u043a \u044f\u0440\u043a\u0430 \u0438 \u043f\u0440\u0435\u043a\u0440\u0430\u0441\u043d\u0430,
\u0432 \u0442\u0435\u043c\u043d\u0435\u044e\u0449\u0435\u043c \u043d\u0435\u0431\u0435
            \u043f\u043e\u0433\u0430\u0441\u043d\u0443\u0442\u044c \u0433\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0432\u0430.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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            \u0443\u0434\u0430\u0440\u0438\u043b\u0438 \u0433\u0440\u043e\u0437\u044b.
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            \u0431\u0435\u0434\u044b, \u043d\u0430\u043f\u0430\u0441\u0442\u0438.
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            \u043f\u043b\u0430\u043c\u0435\u043d\u0438 \u0433\u0440\u0451\u0437\u044b.
\u041c\u0435\u0447\u0442\u0430\u0442\u0435\u043b\u0438 \u0431\u044b\u043b\u0438 \u0443 \u0433\u043d\u0451\u0442\u0430
                        \u0432\u043e \u0432\u043b\u0430\u0441\u0442\u0438.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u041f\u043e\u043b\u0432\u0435\u043a\u0430 \u0441\u0442\u0440\u0430\u0434\u0430\u043d\u0438\u0439 \u2013
            \u0434\u043e\u0441\u0442\u0430\u0442\u043e\u0447\u043d\u043e \u0441\u0440\u043e\u043a\u0430!
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            \u0447\u0442\u043e \u0432 \u043f\u0443\u0442\u0438 \u043f\u043e\u0432\u0441\u0442\u0440\u0435\u0447\u0430\u043b\u0438.
\u0412 \u043d\u0435\u0432\u0435\u0440\u044c\u0435 \u0443\u0436\u0435
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            \u043a\u0430\u043a \u043f\u0440\u0435\u0436\u0434\u0435 \u043d\u0435 \u0437\u043d\u0430\u043b\u0438.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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            \u0440\u0430\u0441\u0442\u0430\u044e\u0442 \u0431\u044b\u0441\u0442\u0440\u0435\u0435.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Vielleicht ist\u00b4s zu keck.Und dennoch vern\u00fcnftig.Drum lassen wir f\u00fcnfziggedanklich mal weg.Dann w\u00e4rest du siebzehn –ersprie\u00dfend und bl\u00fchend,reserviert und verhalten –wie damals in Balzer… O sorglose Jugend!Da gedeihen die Blumenim Garten der Seelesogar ohne Regen:Ein Spinner und Tr\u00e4umer.Er hatte sich heimlichein M\u00e4rchen ersonnenund liebgewonnen –ein junges Gesch\u00f6pf,sympathisch und nett. So kniete er nieder –wieder und wieder! … <\/p>\n

\u201eIm kalten Dezember \/ \u0414\u0435\u043a\u0430\u0431\u0440\u044c\u0441\u043a\u0438\u0435 \u0432\u044c\u044e\u0433\u0438\u201c <\/span>weiterlesen<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-580","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/580","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=580"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/580\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":581,"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/580\/revisions\/581"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=580"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=580"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arnhold.eu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=580"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}